basically the night went like this: i came home, made dinner (pictured below), ate, waited for him, he came home, ate, i insisted my room be put back together, he resisted, we fought, he did it anyway, he coaxed me upstairs to see it, and then i started rearranging things and stymied by my belly and my mouth-breathing and how much harder it is to do/lift/perform routine tasks lately, broke into sobs on the floor. it was pretty grim. like, this wasn't a ladylike trickle of tears - these were heaving rivulets and gasping and wailing that started off as sentences but devolved into primordial keening.
i feel like i'm under a bit of stress. too many extra projects at work that are being micromanaged by people who subscribe to bizarre rules like "you should have 1 power point slide for every 45 seconds of speech" and who insist on bi weekly teleconferences about the status of the presentation (i'm presenting at this tech fair thing in the fall) and are having the first "dry run" of the presentation SIX WEEKS before the actual tech fair is happening. in addition to the demands of my regular job and the current development opportunities and extra projects i'm already committed to.
then there's the stress of not having a space of my own and getting ready for the fatburger and coordinating showers and cottage trips and prenatal classes and all the rest and it's weighing me down. i have so much trouble LETTING GO and going with the flow and not micromanaging everything in my own life and i'm such a perfectionist that i take things way too personally. i also made the mistake of watching a birth video on youtube which freaked me the heck out. i'm sure not doing THAT again, thank you very much.
anyway, on to happier things. late tonight we're leaving to geneseo to visit with my sister and pick up the crib and crib mattress and dresser and eat naughty western new york things and take my nephew for his birthday special day (which includes eating at moe's - his favorite restaurant - and going to the rochester science centre and museum).
and this was tuesday night's dinner, a bacon, leek, corn & cherry tomato sauté with seared wild salmon with scallion mayo:
sesame soba noodles with garlic shrimp
2 "bundles" of soba noodles (the ones i buy come in pre-portioned little bundles)
1 head of broccoli, cut into bite-sized florets
1 orange pepper, small dice
1 cucumber, small dice
3-4 scallions, thinly sliced
3/4 lb of peeled shrimp
4-5 garlic cloves, minced
salt and pepper
spicy sesame garlic sauce
2 T. canola oil
1-3 t. chili flakes
4-5 garlic cloves, finely minced
1/4 c. soy sauce
1 T. sugar
2 T. sesame oil
1 lemon, juiced
- boil water and cook the soba noodles. add the broccoli to the boiling water when the soba are about 1-2 minutes from being done. drain the cooked soba and broccoli and rinse with cold water until cool.
- toss the cold soba and broccoli with the diced pepper, cucumber, and scallions in a large bowl and set aside
make the spicy sesame garlic sauce:
- heat the canola oil with the chili flakes and garlic over low heat, until it starts to sizzle and you can smell the garlic (watch carefully!)
- stir until the garlic is almost golden, then take the pan off the heat and add the soy, the sugar, and sesame oil, stirring to dissolve the sugar
- add the lemon juice, taste for seasoning, and toss this sauce in with the soba noodle mixture
- in the same pan (no point cleaning it!), heat a couple of tablespoons of oil over high heat. add your shrimp and when they've cooked for about 2 minutes and look partially opaque, add the garlic, stirring them around so that the garlic doesn't burn.
- top the soba noodle salad with the cooked shrimp and serve.